mithra

I originally was not going to get the 3DS because Black&White is backwards compatible. BUT I NEED THIS NOW. (屮ﾟДﾟ)屮彡┻━┻ goddammit GODDAMMIT CAPCOM!!!!! *watches it over and over till classes start* AND I'M GONNA WATCH MORE AFTER CLASS TOO!!!

hiatus
Just until I can fucking establish some sort of normalcy.
(School, Chu, family, homework...)



For now I'm going on hiatus since it seems like a major pain in the ass to get everything settled and shit. I will be back. Please don't cut me. ♥ This is just a post to let you know that I'm still alive but you can mostly find me on twitter or facebook. Feel free to add me on those - just tell me who you are. D:

So like, I originally did plan to go to the SM Town Live Concert because I was going to take kyung's (also known as sooyoung@twitter) free ticket and I was going to stay with this person I'm acquainted with and he told me that he was going to be able to let me stay with him in the Sheraton hotel with them (I have a sneaking suspicion that's where they're going to be staying at) but he has not told me anything.

NOTHING.

So I'm giving up officially trying to get there because the only other KPOP fan I know is currently in Virgina and she probably wouldn't be too interested in going to the concert anyway after all the money she blew off at KMF this year. Plus I promised a friend I would spend time with them this weekend for Labor Day and my aunt's probably going somewhere for the birth of some kid (/so nice) this weekend and I don't want to be stuck at home.

So I have break it to her tonight so I can finally get the extra key to the house in case the baby does come this weekend or whenever.

In any case, I really need to do this research/survey for my sociology class but honestly, I'm shy as fuck and I don't want to embarrass myself again. I'll do it tomorrow during actual class. Plus my partner will probably meet in the classroom, talk for 10 minutes tops, and that's it. Plus right now I want to study for my math test tomorrow as well (by highlighting shit - I have no idea why, but it works for me!) and, you know, be prepared and shit.

After class tomorrow as well, I'm straight to my friend's place and probably won't be back online till about...maybe Tuesday afternoon. My mom's finally going to send me a laptop and is finally going to get her shit done so I can get a refund maybe on my financial aid. Hah, I doubt it but whatever. She's also going to send me money for books so I don't have to depend on other people and hoping my teachers don't pick up any book assignments anymore. :T

Anyway I should get going. I need to fangirl bad and I need to study. :c I wish my aunt had internets so I can procrastinate there as well. As usual, call/text me at: (roku-ni-san) go-ni-san-no-ni-ichi-hachi-nana. ♥ And tell me who you are so I won't be all, "omfg".

One last thing: If there's anything I wanted for my birthday, it's Soshi (and of course Sunny) shit:

• Genie (Normal Edition)(Japan Version)
  
• Girls' Generation Vol. 2 - Run Devil Run (Repackage) (Taiwan Version)
  

The only cds I have are: GENIE (mini-album), Oh! (mini-album), and Baby, Baby (repackaged). And of course that Sunny shirt. And if you want my address, I'll message you when I can. ANNND if you're going to the concert, please pick me up a Sunny fan, Siwon fan, and ANYTHING Henry (including Henry himself).

I honestly don't think I'm as strong as you say I am. I don't think I'm as strong as I say I am.

But then when I woke up this morning, I felt okay. Better than the past couple days but my mom called me. As usual. As fucking usual. She just loves to torture me, doesn't she?

After she went, "lol you shouldn't complain about backstabbing because you didn't tell me you were living with my cousin so there u go" (because obviously I still want to talk to her about my personal shit) and then she said, "I heard you and your boyfriend broke up."

She sounded way too happy when she said that. She tried to feed me the bullshit of, "lol i've been there done that so you'll get over it ok" and "there are other fishes in the sea so gtfo now lol ;\"

And just basically way too happy that he and I broke up. Honestly, I don't care anymore. I just want him back. I want him to kiss me and tell me everything's all right. That it was an awful dream. That everything will (almost) go back to where it was.

Also, I called McKenna out finally. She called me stupid on another person's status about a shooting in another town and I just blew it. I pretty much said, "Oh because the smart thing to do would be taking another girl's boyfriend behind their backs! It's Yale-worthy!"

She sent me this:

I don't know why you feel the need to be so immature with your relationship and blame other people for it not working the way your naive little mind thought it would. If you find the need to say something to me, gather all your little courage clusters and have the balls to say it to me. Don't start shit on other peoples' pages.

I'm just going to respond with:

Don't act like you're so superior to me. I'm the last person you need to do that too right now. Yeah, I shouldn't have spammed Sam's status like that but in light of everything, you pretty much are the reason why Bill and I broke up. Sure we did have our problems but we were willing to work it out with me living in another place, in another town entirely. It was going to be hard but after learning about your special dining with him?

You knew I was going to confront you about this sooner or later. I suppose it was sooner. Right now, I am in tathers and I am so angry with you. You KNEW about his obliviousness. You KNEW about his hospitality. You KNEW we were on the rocks. I honestly don't give a shit what your reasons are. Maybe it's not really him who has a problem with loyalty. And believe me, I know I'm not the one with the problem so that only leaves...

And strangely enough, I forgive you. I hope you find security within yourself to stay loyal with one man. I hope you and Gabe do work out. I don't know if I ever want to be friends with you again, but right now - I need to focus on me and trying to mend this broken heart of mine. I should have to told you the limits of how far you can "flirt" with Bill - but then, it was unspoken. You helped really ruin this relationship.

Again, yet I wish you the best. I'll be sure to pray for you.

Anyway, my friend is going to pick me up. My number is (623) 523-2187. Text me or call me. Either way, I'll try to get my mind off of it. Wish me luck, I suppose.

I didn't drunk much. Honestly, I didn't. Just two Smirnoff grape flavored bottles. Maybe Chu grabbed the Vodka version and not the wine coolers. Ahh, I felt fine the other night when I had it although it did tasted a bit off... and chugging the second bottle tonight did burn at the end.

Well. I hope anything I say on this entry or on Twitter, or anywhere else in LJ land, please chalk it up as Riri's first night of being *publically* drunk. Or her first two bottles of Vodka. Whichever works.

Oh, in the Phillipines/Hong Kong issue, apparently Hong Kong's declaring war on the Phillipines...ASt least that's what I understand from this from one of the people I follow:

"We declare war to Philippines. Any Filipino people that stepped, willing to step, or is in still in Hong Kong will be punished to death."

Oh shit. And now they're banned from Korea too? Can I get some details about that? I wish to learn more about it...but I also find it ironic while Hong Kong is declaring war, people on my tlist are going "YAY HONG KONG! YAY PHILLIPINES!" or whatever. It's l;ike they're unaware or they're absorbed in it... I also like how the person I asked for more details decided to whine about 2PM's hair.

I guess 2PM are more important than the hostages. Really puts my mind in perspective...SAnd speaking of my mind, my head hurts rrally bad. I'm starting ro really care less about my spelling...

I only wish they can resovle this peacefully and that 2PM's hair would find its way back into fans hearts. because the world < their hair.

but what can i expect from fans? all they care are about themselves and boybands.... as for me...

all i can say is, put that in your pipe and smoke it.

i wish i could watch tv but i can't... chu will start whining about noise but i can't do anything else while he's on wow... so boring... i hope echogon works tonight

( This is essentially how I feel about my relationship with Chu right now. )

However, even though I'm still really unsure about our relationship, one thing is for sure - I'm going back to school. I'm sure you on Twitter knew about that though. But here is my schedule. I just need to get a laptop from my dad. Argh, he knows how much I need it. He told me he was going to get me one and was going to pay for my college

I did try to take sociologique's advice about the laptop by calling them (plus they had me listed as an out-of-state student and added extra fucking fees which totaled around 5K :'D) about it. I called them earlier about it and the lady told me that it depends on my FASFA/financial aid (although it's been accepted by UAT finally...I hope Miss Clarke does the right thing and inform the financial aid that I'm not going there anymore due to location) - which, I had just added the community college to it. :') I don't know if it'll get accepted.

Anyway, now I have to jump through hoops and shit to get, not only get my tuition and get those fees cut out of my thing. Thankfully, I already scanned my Arizona ID card, finished the Prop 300 form, and told my grandmother about the notary she needs to do. I just got to go to a notary tomorrow myself and fill out this affidavit.

At the same time, Chu is starting to seem happier. Of course he puts up a front, saying it's WoW or whatever, but I can tell he's happy for me. Mostly that I won't depend on him anymore. :'| I mean, even though he invited me in... and it really was the one time I let myself go. I'm not going to do that anymore. It's why I waited to register for school till my aunt told me if the cousins can let me stay with them in Mesa (I know, too late, quinnsan T_T). I had my hopes high for Mesa Community College because you guys, especially those who have known me for years, know that I always want to learn Japanese, even if it's for fannish reasons.

I will accomplish it. Is it wrong that I want Chu to be there to see me succeed? Even though he whines a lot about what he thinks I should do? I needed to be here in New Jersey. I needed to get my head together. And I did. I know what's important now.

Even though everything is still really unsure, this is generally how I feel about going back to school and at the possibility of saving myself and my relationship with not just Chu but my dear, loving, and forgiving friends.

It also helps I've been writing on Korean Beef again with jongwan. ♥ And listening to Super Junior-M's "Super Girl".


(Also goes really well with this. By the way, thrift, I'm still waiting for the Lady Gaga/DBSK, Lady Gaga/Super Junior, and 50/Super Junior manips.)

I've been playing Edgeworth's game on and off. I originally was going to work today but Chu didn't want me to feel like I've a slave or something. I kept telling him that, goddammit, I didn't mind. It gave me something to do though, yeah, I have shit online to do. Well, not really. More like clean up my mail box and messages on Facebook. -_- I'm mostly waiting for Mario 64 and Take Back to arrive. Ahh. I'm so anxious.

In any case, I decided to take the time to finally record myself singing. I don't know. Enjoy the fail, though.

( it's my fate! )

It sucks, I know, I don't know why I did it. I JUST HAD TO AND I WANTED TO OKAY. :'|||||| SO LIKE. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHED,AJKLSJFLSJFDKLJFDLS. I'll just go and do something for the reminder of the time I'm online.

( cut for the long meme. )

I finally sat down and edited my userpics. I'm sorry I didn't comment. I'm not only a lazy mofo but I'm an indecisive one as well. Also, sorry for seeing my default everywhere now. My next goal is to get this revamped and updated. After that is to get my LJ layout done finally. Then work on my cosplay community... and then maybe post my covers up here? I don't know. I don't know. I just feel really constructive lately (well, in LJ world that is).

Also, sarah_the_crab is selling Koda Kumi's "Take Back" single for $3. I can't begin to tell you how much I need it. 8( I think I'll probably just get that instead of the Heaven and Lollipop Bad Girl. As much as I want them both...I can't. Maybe one day but not right now. But AT LAAAAST. *____* I LOVE TAKE BACK SO MUCH. I'M SO HAPPY~!

Um yeah, that's all I have to really update on.

Last night as I was watching random Vocaloid videos on YouTube, Chu's mom gets a call from one of the cooks that lives with them (when I said Chu's family were old-fashioned, I mean it) saying that he has a kidney stone and it's causing him a tremendous amount of pain. Well, Chu came upstairs to Google some natural/fast remedies and was about to take the guy to the hospital when he saw someone trying to break in his dad's car across the street. Even though, you know, the house had all its lights on. (In retrospect, he thought that the car must have belonged to the people across the street? IDEFK.)

...Yeah. He told me that he and the guy just stood there and was trying to walk away from the ~scene~. When Chu remembered to call out, the dude just bolted. He didn't damage the car thankfully and he didn't pull out any weapons on Chu (a fact I'm really thankful for). Naturally, Chu called the cops on the guy but we're not sure if they caught him or not since they haven't called him yet. Arrgh. D:

And thus the cook had to leave to NYC because of the kidney stone. Poor guy. I hope he's not in pain anymore. I couldn't really sleep for the most part but I slept only because I was tired. I'm still kinda surprised about it. I mean, as I said on Twitter, I expected this shit to happen back in Phoenix or in LA or some major city but here? And to Chu's family no doubt? Makes me all dlkasjdjflds. I guess that's just another problem with this economy. Crime goes up... D:

Anyway, I saw BoA's teaser for Hurricane Venus. Weird. It sounds like her old stuff but eh. I didn't like GAME like everyone else seemed to. Sorry, but I just don't. It's too noisy and doesn't actually have a rhythm and plus - BoA did not look good with whatever fashion she was trying to convey. Maybe it's because I don't like her or something. Argh. I hope I don't get defriended over this because if I do ... lol well ok then!

But yeah. I had to update about that because it was cray cray. I know Chu can defend himself, I mean, he's a pretty big guy and he can whoop some ass if he had too. Just can't help but be worried, you know?

I think I'm starting to get addicted to that Dollars site/chat. @_______@; I wonder if it'll work with an iPhone. I hope so cause then it really would be like DRRRR. *PUNCHED*